Thanks!!

 Thanks so much!!

 

　　Thanks to those who give me help, give me chance, give me confident~~~ I know, most of the time, I really lack of confidence, and always bring myself into a dark place, and make myself lost inside….

 

　　Sometimes, I can bring myself into a very confident way, but once I bring myself there, I have a felt, a feeling tells me that, why I didn’t do it better? Suppose I can did it better… The more I wish I can did it better, it getting worse in the end….

 

　　I had my first experience of being MC in such a quite formal activity… I can felt that I did a worst job that I never did…. For so far, until last night (I mean Monday night). Well, it happen in very sudden, and at the same times, all the things in my mind is the youth club things… And that’s actually didn’t make my brain be clear? I hate when i have this kind of excuses~~~

 

　　That excuses actually make me felt like I still kinda weak on being MC, coz in a short time period, I can’t get myself prepare~~ A little dissappointment for myself, however!! I know I should and I will do it better next time!!

 

　　Thanks to the youth club gave me a sweet chance~~~ Being Secertary is something I always afraid of….. And this time, they gave me a chance, and happy to say that, they “look high” on me….. And which i also very afraid, letting them down…. I will dissappointed them….. So many fears….. And are these fears will be overcomed?

 

　　Sometimes, I felt weird, why I can be so confident sometimes, and suddenly I was soo fears of all the things……..