How am I?

My life lately was BUSY BUSY BUSY!! STRESS STRESS STRESS!! NO TIME!! This really COST me something after months (abt one year?) staying home and relax…. However, still active, VERY active in YMM…. Was sometimes too active until I felt myself changed a lot.. Getting more and more comments and ideas…. Is that good or bad??

After that, am still very active in YMM, but now!! Am working………….. At SHQ~~~ SHQ is Sha Hua Qing, another youth club, this youth club is much different from YMM….. Yeap, in YMM  we normally will be given the budget and go look for sponsor, and learn how to organizing different types of activities…. But here in SHQ, we need to ask our “gentlemen” for advise, and listen to thier “comment”ssss….

A~ That’s not the main point…… Now SHQ is organizing a huge function! Shao Lin Wushu Performance!! YO!! It’s great!! Wishing and waitting the moment!! During this moment, I learnt how to typing~~~ For sure, I already know how to type~~~ Ok, I learnt a lot of how to write letter and proposal to sponsors… How to attract them to sponsor us the function! At the moment, for sure, there are sadness, and A lot OF HAPPINESS!! ^^ HAHA!!

Well Well.. Sean’s blog remind my blog here… Which I been almost forgot soon?! OHNO!!! I start no linking this blog from any other of my blog…. Coz still… I take this as my private blog for temporary~~~ At this moment~~~

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此时此刻的我，居然还在犹豫~~是否真的该离开~~~~我是不是应该的安静走开呢？说真话，我原来真的一点负担子也没有~~~~今天和一个朋友外出喝 茶，结果聊天时，她和我说，她才停工一个月不到，就开始感觉到恐惧了，担心她的卡数该如何还，看来，我应该去胡乱刷卡一下，这样~~我才会有负担，才会积 极一点去弄点东西吧~~~

不知不觉，我已经算是“无所事事”一年了~~在我决定离开的时候，我居然还在犹豫不决~~~哎~~~这个是我的人什么？其实究竟我们活在世界上有什么目的么？生老病死~~~结婚生子~~？打工一辈子，对着老公孩子一辈子？就这样完了一生？

不知道，我应该不应该把这个责任推给我父母，因为，从小他们没有教导我做人应该要有目标~~生存的价值~~~不过，同样在这个家庭成长的哥哥姐姐，居 然也找到了，看来有问题的人只是我一个罢了~~重新开始？该如何重新开始？开始错了，该如何？忽然觉得其实我也不是一个好家长，我也没有把我的猫照顾 好……